You see, Justin and I, we have a bargain of sorts. It's never been explicitly stated but it's there. He works outside of the home and I work inside the home. He makes money and I try my darnedest to save money. Some might call that patriarchal and old-fashioned. And, really, it kind of is. But you know what? I really like it that way. Yes, I know we're extremely lucky and have a very unique situation. Many people around the country aren't in a position to be able to live on one income. But we are and want to take advantage of it. So I did the unthinkable and turned down an amazing job today. Because ultimately I know that I can't do everything. I can't work 30 hours a week and still do everything that I
Over the weekend, we discussed all these things. Around and around we went, wrestling with the all these facts, trying to decide what was best for us, both individually and as a couple. Because frankly, I wanted this job. I wanted it a lot. To be able to spend my days with this group of people that I admire and respect, to be in an environment that supports the things that I believe in, would have been fantastic. It was the perfect job. But there were still those nagging thoughts and questions. What parts of our lifestyle will we be giving up just to have a little more money? In the end, Justin left the decision to me and I turned it down because, ultimately, we would have lost more than we gained. Do I regret my decision? No, I don't think I do. Do I wish I could have made both work? You betcha.